Encountering Ceaseless Wonder

May has been an amazing month

A poem from early this year:

In the Throes of Urgency

My teeth aren't perfect

My bite is uneven

and my front teeth don't touch

My molars

display damage

otherwise invisible

Some no longer have curved tops

revealing the truth

of how tightly

I've kept my mouth shut

My jaw aches as I try

to gingerly

hold

your lip

between my teeth

I’m sorry if I break skin

My incisors desperately compensate

for the lack

of the others taking hold

and all of me

wants to hold you

I'm sorry

if I hold you

too tightly

My tendons flare with the fear of letting go

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Updates since last month:

In an unprecedented turn of events, I wrote a 67k-word fanfiction in a little over a month. That is, literally, the length of a short novel.

I have never felt so moved to write like I have in these past few months. It's been freeing too, knowing it's all been for personal enjoyment! Serotonin is flowing through me in oceanic quantities.

The fanfiction I wrote was meant to be a short, meet-cute AU for Hannibal and Will. 67k words do NOT meet that criterion. Scenes unfurled and I grew to love the new lives I gave them; an entire story created itself.

For anyone who hasn't seen the show…if you're curious about it, I will only encourage you to watch it. I got a Hannibal tattoo for my upcoming birthday; that is how much of an impact it has on me.

~ANYWAY~

You don't even need to see the show to read this one if you want to. The only connections with the show are the characters and a few overlapping details about their jobs/interests.

My new fanfic: Thanking the Sun For Shining

ALSO. My first fanfic, “Hook, Wine, & Sinker,” has over 2.5k views now??? I’m speechless.

I never had a Tumblr or anything like that growing up, so cheers to finally having my fandom/fanfic phase! I love the community I’ve found and am still swooning from all the support I’m given!

See you next month!